May 21, 2010

A Letter To My Daughter

Dear Maddy,

You'll find out some day that I'm a fairly sappy person. I cry at movies that make me sad, or happy. I find myself so wrapped up in the love stories I read that I believe they have to be real. It is because of this trait that I decided to make a play list on my iPod of songs just for you. I hope it is just the start of the soundtrack to your life. Most of them so far are songs about daughters, or children, but the rest are about living life to it's fullest, and love. I was listening to your soundtrack on the way home from work and was inspired to write this by "I Hope You Dance". So I bring to you a little wisdom to live your life by.

*Never pass up the opportunity to help someone less fortunate than yourself out. Do not do it to make yourself look better though, no, do it out of the kindness in your heart. Volunteer. Donate money to a worthy charity. Do something to give back for all that you have been given in life.

*Someday you will have your heart broken, it is an inevitable fact of life. Someday you may also break hearts too. I cannot tell you which hurts more, watching someone who you love deeply leave you, or leaving someone who loves you more than life itself. Just know that life always goes on, eventually your heart will heal, and you will find an even deeper love out there waiting for you.

*Don't take for granted the beauty of the place where we live. On a sunny day admire the mountains, their grand majesty and snow covered peaks, the fact that no matter where you turn there they are. Notice how the sun breaks through the clouds on a rainy day and the whole world glitters in its light. Take it all in, and enjoy its peacefulness.

*Every day is a new day. You can accomplish anything you set your mind to, and just because you didn't do it the day before doesn't mean you have to give up. Try again. The only thing that can hold you back is you.

*Never regret anything. Everything you have done in life has made you who you are. You may do things that you are ashamed of, but learn from it. Grow from it. Remember, never forget it, and move on.

*What you do defines who you are. Your actions will speak louder than the words that come from your lips.

*Don't say anything about someone when they are not around that you wouldn't say to their face.

*Beauty is only skin deep. You may be beautiful on the outside, but what really matters is the beauty hidden in your heart.

*Do not stay with a person who doesn't treat you right. You deserve respect. You deserve to be loved. You deserve to be happy. But remember little one, whoever you love deserves those things just as much. A relationship is a partnership, each of you should be just as important to one another.

*Love openly and freely, but do not fall in love too fast. Know the difference between love and lust.

*I'm going to tell you something a wise woman once told me; you are my daughter and I have to love you, but I don't always have to like you. You are going to do things someday that I probably won't like that much, but just because I don't like what you've done doesn't mean I don't love you. I will always love you.

*Treat every animal on this earth with the love and kindness you would a fellow human. Love your pets like they are a part of your family, because they are.

*Don't underestimate the power of the following words: Please, Thank You, Excuse Me Please. It is important to be polite and remember your manners.

*Another important word: No. I've learned the hard way that you can't let people take advantage of you. If you never say no they are going to walk all over you. Learn what your limits are, and when to politely decline.

*Shoes can make or break an outfit. No matter what your dad says, a girl can't have too many shoes.

So my little one, I hope that you'll use this advice in your life. I hope that as the years go by I'll be able to help you turn into the best person you can be.

When you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.

Love,

Your Mom

May 12, 2010

An (Almost) 20 Week Update

I wanted to post a quick update. I feel like my belly just “popped” the other day and I’m looking more pregnant now. I came home from work last night and TJ told me the shirt I was wearing made me look really pregnant. I had been thinking the same thing all day. After we went shopping for dinner I came home and put on a tank top, at which point TJ said, “It wasn’t the shirt, you just look pregnant!!”. And I had to agree with him. It was as if overnight my little baby pooch became a not-so-little baby pooch.

Please see exhibit A, taken this morning before work. A self portrait of me and the girl:


TJ and I are going to a nice dinner tonight that benefits Housing Hope, so I wore one of my maternity dresses today. The way it’s cut makes me look more pregnant than I am, but then I held my belly in the picture and realized, holy crap, I really look that pregnant!!

I spent Mother’s Day with my awesome momma and sister, and we went a little wild. This little girl? She is going to have a kick ass wardrobe thanks to a few people who have shopping problems. We went to the mall and each spent a decent amount time and cash at The Pumpkin Patch (I love, love, love that place!!). When I got home I started to pull each item out of the bag to show TJ. I noticed he was losing interested so I pulled the remaining clothes out of the bag and his eyes went wide and he asked, “Have I already seen these?!?!?!” Hahaha, uhm, no! A girl needs cute clothes!

Before I go I have to brag on my husband really quick. Those of you who know him probably know he’s a pretty quiet, unemotional, even keeled kind of guy. He loves me a whole hell of a lot, but he isn’t the “romantic” type. It always throws me for a loop when he does something sentimental. I woke up on Mother’s Day morning and he bought me the BEST card. But it wasn’t the card that made me cry, it was what he wrote in the card, “I can’t wait to meet our beautiful daughter.” As I read it I lost it. He is going to be the best dad, and I can’t wait for both of us to meet her!

May 7, 2010

We're Having. . .

Edit: Now with pictures below!



A baby. Ha. Gotcha.

Our appointment this morning went very, very well. And yes, we found out what we are having (more on that later. . .). I couldn't remember if I had scheduled our appointment for 7:00 or 7:15, so we decided to show up at 7:00 just in case. Plus, I was more than a little anxious. As we were walking into the hospital we ran into TJ's mom, since she works there. We told her we'd let her know as soon as we knew, and then we head up the escalators to check in at radiology.

I checked in and found out my appointment was really 7:30. . .so we were reaaaaally early. Luckily I brought my Ipod touch for TJ and I had games on my phone to play with as well. So we waited until 7:30 and an ultrasound tech name Lisa brought us back to the first room. Lisa was very friendly, she explained everything we were seeing on the screen and that it all looked great. The baby was not being cooperative though, Lisa needed a profile shot of the baby's head and couldn't get the right angle. She tired for a while to get it, and then asked me to get up, walk around and empty my bladder to see if that helped.

Like I said last week I'm starting to feel movements. Most of the time it feels like I'm going down a roller coaster and I've lost my stomach. I think I feel that way when the baby is rolling around. Just as I was about to lay back down I had the roller coaster feeling and so I was pretty sure we'd get a good shot. I was right, baby was laying the right way and Lisa was able to get all of the measurements she needed to get.

After Lisa had checked all that needed to be check she said, "Well, wasn't there something else that you guys wanted to see??" And we laughed. She started to move the wand around so we could get a good shot of everything. Right when she zoomed in I had a feeling of what she was going to say, but I just waited. She got a good angle and took a still frame shot for us and then typed on the screen. . .







THINK PINK!

So, TJ and I are elated to announce that come this fall we are expecting a baby GIRL!!! And I am happy to announce that I was right, since I like to be right. ;) The best part about it though is that from what Lisa could tell she seems very, very healthy! TJ was pretty shocked since he was certain the baby was going to be a boy. He said he knew as soon as she was looking around though that there weren't any boy parts, and so did I.

We sent a text or called our family as soon as we left the room, and then went upstairs to his mom's office to show her the pictures. Lisa was wonderful and printed out 3 3D pictures, 4 regular ultrasound pictures, and a "money shot" picture (that says THINK PINK!) for us. I think that it is actually a lot more photos than most people get, so thank you Lisa!!!! I handed Ann the pictures and told her the last picture told her what we were having, she asked if she'd be able to tell and I said yes. When she got to it she started to cry, then I started to cry and I'm pretty sure TJ did too. I called my mom and I'm pretty certain she cried too and I can't wait to show her the pictures on Mother's Day!

So, over all today has been a GREAT day! We're having a GIRL! Woo-hoo!! Once I get home I'll load the pictures on the computer and post them here for the world to see.

Dear October: can't you come any faster?????